422013

why can i only write when somber?

why can i only express longing loss and desire?

 why cant i create an image of beauty

 

4213

i really wish i had some sort of device that would allow me to make others understand my observations of themselves and the world.

3813

i have this tendency to want to open up to people, once i have made any sort of emotional connection with them

this is dangerous. i have to keep telling myself. first impressions are often deceiving and whoever you think this person is initially they may not be.

i find myself constantly being fooled and believing there is far too much good in everyone.

i find mostly that the end result of this leaves me beyond baffled and feeling as though I've been slightly betrayed. 

although realistically it is my own false hope that betrays me.

how can i correct the fact that i want to believe that all those i allow into my life hold to the same moral views that i hold myself to?

 

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When one is prepared to make a generously large leap of faith,

We trip and stumble on the uprooted undergrowth beneath our feet.

 

life is messy